voices that linger.

2010-08-08T15:10:00.003+08:00

ive moved. click here.

2010-08-06T18:08:00.002+08:00

I lost one of the very few things left that I can treasure. And the one I lost, was the one I treasured the most :C

im really sorry Dora, for ive lost that one hp youve trusted me to keep hold of. im really very sorry.
pls forgive me, for a moment of folly cost me this misfortune. im sorry.

2010-08-06T10:07:00.002+08:00

I remember when we wrote our love,
For me for you on the fallen leaves of spring.
I remember you taking my hand in yours,
And then you promised a love of no ending.
Together, forever.

2010-08-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

all i wana say is i miss you, yknow?
no, of course you dont. youre caught up in him.

I still remember the day,
When you took my breath away,
Even though it feels like yesterday,
The feeling so sweet there's no words to say.

2010-08-05T07:14:00.001+08:00

sigh, so much of my hair is falling right now, youd be able to see hair strands on the floor if i dont sweep.

2010-08-05T02:15:00.002+08:00

i now just realised alot of things. by alot, i mean ALOT. about her. yeah. but its all good things, really good things.

2010-08-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

bowling was fun :D
i finally have internet.
i cant wait for PESedits 3.5 update.
aaaaaaand, i miss you.

anw, have been doing a movie marathon.
Zombieland, Cop Out, Date Night, Diary of a Wimpy Kid, Mall Cop, Dear John, I Love You, Beth Cooper (now i know why its M18/NC16 =.=).
basically im doing a movie marathon on movies id wanted to catch but couldnt (apart from Zombieland, Faizal rec). and i just downloaded many more of which im yet to watch. teehee.

2010-07-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

if i could have a wish, this is what id say,

'My wish would be to get to say 'I love you' to just a someone. To be able to hold her in my arms and run my fingers through her hair. To be able to look her in the eyes and tell her how beautiful she is to me. And I'd love it, really, really would love it, if that someone could still be you. Just you.'

id wait for my chance girl. cos i know, youre worth it.

2010-07-29T20:22:00.003+08:00

people say, when that person appear in your dreams, that means you think abt them alot.

so i think, ive come to the realisation that, i may never get over you. and im happy that its that way. that means i still love you :D

2010-07-29T09:50:00.003+08:00

it was just a dream, yet it felt, so eerily real. second time, and both times, i dreamt of you. ugh. get a grip loserboy.

2010-07-29T02:35:00.001+08:00

my brain is muddled, and im thinking of making my own Tumblr >.>
muddleeeed, MUDDLED i say. sigh.

2010-07-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

if what was said just now is true, then that means i wont get my happily ever after.
cos according to Erwin, imam Mahdi sudah dilahirkan.
that meant i wont get to live my life to the fullest. that meant i might not even be able to marry the love of my life, live til old while being stupid with one another along the way, and die happy. i wana do all that.

i want to be able to share the rest of my life with someone.

2010-07-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

aku just realised smth. i write nice status kat FB, kes things youd write about that current girl of your dreams/ that girl you like/ your gf even. what i realised is, bile aku tulis kan, aku tatawu who i was referring to. hahha!
cos when i see the status that i wrote/typed, the first that comes to my mind is... actually, nth comes to mind. see what i mean?
ouh well >.>

2010-07-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

sheesha was fun, but payah, cos nak kene carik tempat utk yg org UNDERage boleh masok skali.
then shee, lpas tu sha, then sho, then tido. AINKK. then ade org sakit perot, blahblahblah. 2 hantu ader curfew = balek siang, camwhore, blahblahblah, tak ckup, camwhore lagik, blahblahblah tak perlu. then ader org confident nak ton, but tak jadik. so yeah C:

its a fun day.

2010-07-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

Bruno Mars newest single descibes my feelings to perfection, you know, about how i feel for you and stuff.

Won't you please turn your attention to me,
I wanna be the newest attraction in your vicinity.
I'm the one screaming for you hoping you'd see,
I'm just little boy hoping far on what I hope would be.

2010-07-21T17:18:00.002+08:00

Why would you love someone,
Who hurts you & makes you feel bad.
Love is about pure joy and hope.
So why does he make you feel so damn sad.

Give me a chance, let me inside,
Let me mend that heart that you just shared,
Then I'll say 'come take my hand',
And I'll show you the happiness you never had.

Every little moments I'd treasure,
I'll hang them along the walls of my heart.
Memories of you hung everywhere I see,
So beautiful to me like priceless works of art.

And you could give me yours if you'd like,
And I will promise you I'd never tear it apart.
All these would be but just a dream to me,
For I know a 'You and I' would never start.

For he will always be in your sweet little heart.

2010-07-19T13:42:00.004+08:00

my first tournament - a success :D . reached finals, tho i didnt attend. heheh. i felt that the chalet was more impt, so yeah.

the chalet - was fun, more or less. there were some not-so-nice incidents that happened, but aside from that, its all good. hahha!

but one thing i regret from this fun weekend was the majlis that that someone told me abt, that i didnt know earlier on. kalo tak, dpt jumpe org tu. hahha!

This girl right here is my favourite girl,
If I had her, I don't need the world.
If I had her, she'd be my only star,
If I had her, well if only I had her.

2010-07-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

tournament thingy is in a few hours. aft that, chalet. kiwek, pnat pe. if make it to final, Sun ader lagik >.>

yg chalet part Gay, dahh settle. part Tina, aku dead end. aku tatawu what to get for her.

SIGHH. wish me luck for the tournament, whoever you are thats reading this. ill need it. since ill have nth to cheer me on anw.

2010-07-16T16:16:00.005+08:00

sigh, i feel so ugly :C

2010-07-16T02:43:00.003+08:00

yessah! i finally get to 'shop' :D
and i finally got the cargo pants i wanted. wooo~.
ouh yeah, outing today was with 5 idiots - 1 idiot + another idiot = Faizal, Danoi, Syed, Shahdan, ~~Nizwan~~ and Acap. hahaha!
bileeee Nonoi ngn Tingting nak upload gambar gambar seme >.>

If I were to give you my heart,
Could I trust you not to break it apart?
If I'm to tell you you're the one,
Would you just let me in and together 'we' start.

forgive me for im just living in my own fantasy world.
id dedicate those few lines to her, but if she knew it was to her, shed be off running screaming for her life; im even uglier than Shrek.

2010-07-15T01:00:00.003+08:00

maybe i shouldntve counted my chickens before they hatch.
what im saying is, i feel stupid. REALLY stupid.
ouh well.

Maybe I'm just living in my own fantasy,
A fantasy that involves just a little of you and me.
A fantasy whereby a sweet sweet couple we'd be,
I brought myself down you ain't have to say sorry.

i mean, WHO IN THE WORLD would like someone like ME..?
i look like bullshit. more so now, now that ive cut my hair.
im a maid, or so they say i look like one.
thks C:

2010-07-14T16:05:00.003+08:00

no matter what i do, no matter how much i try viewing life as a bright and happy place, i still get the feeling of being not needed, unwanted. sigh.

2010-07-14T13:46:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i think i wonder too much. is that a good thing or a bad thing..?
sometimes, i think im too afraid to do anyth. i know, its a bad thing. im afraid to do anyth, cos im afraid to risk what we aldy have in front of us. but if i dont do anyth, then itll just stay that way.

Dia gadis yang bermuka manis itu,
Dia yang aku mahu memberitahu 'I love you'.
Tapi aku tak berani sebut kerna aku malu,
Walaupun dalam hati, aku hanya mahu kamu.

on a somewhat scarier note, im having doubts abt the tournament. like, serious doubts. great huh? my first time entering a soccer tournament, and i just HAVE to have the jiggies.

ouh, and i saw this,
Today my crush was telling me how he was in love with the most beautiful person in the world.
I just listened but didn't say much.
After a while, he says, "Don't you know I have been talking about you this whole time?"

His LGMH.

cool huh.

2010-07-14T01:09:00.002+08:00

how?
im afraid she reads my blog >.>
mampos ahh. bace, bace ahh.

2010-07-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

shocked, ouh well.

2010-07-13T13:00:00.003+08:00

YESSAH! i dont have to go manhunt, or in this case female hunt, at AMK :'D
i FINALLY found you, or at least your FB. aft 44 days of searching. they say patience always pays off, i say its true.

2010-07-13T01:44:00.008+08:00

As we lay right here down on the grass,
I looked at you hoping that this would last.
All my time I look to spend with you,
Honestly you're a dream that came true.

~~it just strucked me, today it wouldve been the 18th/16th. wouldve been C:~~
wasnt worth it, reminding myself of it.
but then again, a friend once told me, never to regret.
ARRRGHH, back to PES, bye weeners. oops! i meant winners. teehee :D

2010-07-12T14:33:00.003+08:00

am i nice, or do i just act nice in front of people. you know, like a facade of sorts.

2010-07-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

F, you f. f laa you. you laa, F. f you laa. f you, F. F, see you, kay? hahahahha!
kau phm ape aku kate? aku tak phm sia xD

When the sun sets low and the moon rises high,
That'll be the time that I'll be seeing you fly.
It'll be rockin' seein' you staring at me from the sky,
You'll be the last thing I see before I cry.

actually, above ^ is a poem on our friendly neighbourhood person/thingy Cik Pon. hahahha!

I like the light that's falling on to your face,
Now I can see every little thing about you.
Every moment is a memory I can't erase,
Come and make me smile, just like you always do.

now this, is about her. sweet, sweet her.

ouh, before i forget. YESSSAH! im a teacher now. i teach dumb people Eng. hahahahaha :D

2010-07-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

if i could come up to you and tell you how i feel abt you, i would. but sadly, got one problem.
HOW THE HELL DO I TELL YOU THAT >.>
nbcbfdjjsnchb.

hahhahha.

anw, tadik kan, got this pok tell me he lpak kat area block dier. org carik carik pehh carik, takde. dahh balek, then i realise he msg-ed, 'Aku kt rmh erwin'. idiot.

Could it be your smile,
No no, i dont think so.
Could it be the way that you laugh,
Oh no, girl I don't know.

All that I know is I'm fallin' hard for you.

2010-07-08T16:51:00.002+08:00

I need to be looking in her eyes,
Hypnotized.
I'm not lonely,
I'm just holding out, out for something real.

I wanna feel that big time rush,
The kind of love that makes a grown man blush.

Nasri - Big Time Rush.

2010-07-08T00:55:00.003+08:00

Class today was AWEESOME :D
i learned how to play soccer at hockey pitch. hahha!
anw, met sooo many people today, new and old.
lesson dahbes, kite lpak kat McD and had some laughs.
Well, what went on there, stays there x]

aside from some flashbacks and some other things, it was a fun day C:

on a more stalkish note, i was tempted to go AMK.
seeeeeriously xD

What is it about you,
What is it that you do,
It's like I'm under your genjutsu,
'Cos you're all that I'm into.

2010-07-07T12:42:00.003+08:00

soccer, soccer, soccer, Fyeeza, Fyeeza, Fyeeza, socc, no! Fyeeza :D

Where are you right now,
I'm waiting right here.
I'm waiting for the signs,
Waiting for you to appear.

2010-07-06T19:23:00.002+08:00

i miss somebodys kuih tat >.>

2010-07-06T15:14:00.002+08:00

had a veeeery interesting chat with Khai Afiq last night. hahahhaha.

i wish tmr got nth on. then can go back to school, SOCCEERRRRR. cant wait.
its been awhile since i played with them.

anw, am still missing F.
i mean, who wont miss someone so beautiful..? :D
great smile, lovely face and a matching attitude.
i wish i could say the same about myself... HAHAHAHA!

I love the way you play your hair,
I love your sweet, sweet smile,
I love the way you'd stare and stare
For you I'd go the extra mile.

2010-07-05T13:20:00.002+08:00

The plane is waiting,
Will you come around.
I won't take off,
If you're still on the ground.

It's supposed to be,
A fairytale ride for two.
So it won't be complete,
If I am not with you.

i miss you.

2010-07-05T00:42:00.003+08:00

No one can ever compare to you,
No matter what is it that they would do.
You are my only dream come true,
Your beauty's got me stuck like a statue,

aaaaaaaaaaaand, your time is up Yan. jage pintu besok kay. ill be hoping to come aknockin.

2010-07-04T01:48:00.004+08:00

i really have some great friends ard me C:

sigh, if only life has a remote control.
the only buttons id use, would be pause and repeat. id pause on the 29th May and repeat that day over and over again.

Everytime I see you staring at me,
Girl I wonder what is it that you see.
Come here let me talk with you,
Let me clear the little love issue.

and 1 day left, shitface mofo'er.

2010-07-03T01:10:00.003+08:00

I like the way you look so pretty,
You're the only one my eyes can see.
No matter what I do I'm fixed on you,
You're the one I'd like to call my boo.

i seriously feel like going down to AMK. but after that, what? stand kat MRT station? hahha! all i have to is just ask my dad, yet i dont have the guts to.

anw, 2 more days.

2010-07-02T01:55:00.003+08:00

today was a bore. ouh, and 3 days and counting Yan, kay?

Everytime I think of you,
I see your pretty face.
I'm missing you so bad,
I'm reaching for that empty space.

ehk Hantu Misai, Lionel Masai is waiting okay..? hahha! he says he misses you real bad :C

2010-06-30T13:52:00.004+08:00

I met this girl about a year ago,
I just found out she's from Ang Mo Kio.
I didnt knew who she might be,
But I don't want her to remain a real life mystery.

teehee :D
sorry if its crap.

2010-06-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

honestly, i have no idea how i can miss someone i barely knew this bad. i mean, i dont know if she still remembers me. hahha! but whatever. i miss her, so yeah.

Life would never be complete,
Without you right by me side.
'cos you're all that I'd need,
To make this life of mine feel so right.

2010-06-29T01:26:00.002+08:00

i just blogged to say i miss that certain Hantu. i really, really, missed you. if only, sister would give me the pictures of the KL vacation. but sadly, were not talking, still. why ehk pictures? then i can at least look at your face when i wake up ke, when i brushing my teeth ke, when i going to eat ke, before i sleep ke, senang kate, anytime i wana see laa. kan best kan? HAHHA! i want a fairytale like the ones shown on LoveGivesMeHope. kan gerek kan. no, im not disillusioned. a fairytale aint just a fairytale if you make it happen C:

2010-06-28T00:54:00.001+08:00

is living consigning yourself to what people want you to be? or the choices you make? peoples satisfaction? or your happiness?

am i to submit my life to my parents; live life their way, so that theyll be happy, while i might not be. i mean, i wana enjoy life too yknow. no, not in the clubbing, drinking, get wasted, smoke weed kinda way. no offence to those who does, im not into that kinda stuff. just normal unadulterated fun, if you can put it that way.

all i want is to live my life the way i see fit. be happy, fall in love, maybe fall out of love, love again, have a good job, marry, have kids, and see out the rest of my life beside my wife, if id have any. if not, die alone. but id prefer to have a partner.

thats all, tak mintak lebih pe. im not gona lpak for the rest of my life. my intentions are good, no..?

on a happier-kinda-way note, i still miss F.
bile lehh 'accidentally' terserempak ni..?
sighh ):

2010-06-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

words, lines, sentences always unexpectedly pop out of my head.
always, which results in this here below.

If i could have one wish, girl I would say,
To get to meet you in the light of the day.
I sit and I stare as I see my angel shine,
Dreaming of the day when you'll be mine, all mine.

2010-06-25T03:40:00.002+08:00

HI!
i just blogged to say i miss F...aizal. AINKK!
lehh mimpi kan ahh.
but seriously, i miss F.
i wish my wish will be wishfully granted soon.

F, F, F, F.
thats the only thing on my ming; her.

If i could write you a song,
And make you fall in love.
I would say that you're the sweetest,
You're godsent from above.

2010-06-22T13:39:00.003+08:00

ok so yeah, i just came back from Indo.
nth much happened. apart from some spooky incidents, it was quite mundane. i wont say boring, just a little mundane. ok fine, it was boring. so boring, i took some piece of paper, a pencil and eraser, and just started drawing. this was what i drew.

i know, not nice. hahha! its supposed to be her, buuuuut... yeah.
yeayea, criticise aku laaa ye Art students >.>

so yea, to sum up my Indo trip, boring.
the only spark was getting the Davidoff, the CK and the Hilfiger perfumes.
BUUUUUUUT, satu pecah (Mirza, not me), satu hilang. left with Davidoff now =.=

ouh yeah, better take your ole-ole asap. unless you want basi keropoks :D

2010-06-22T02:28:00.004+08:00

blahdiblah, yea~.
im back! but im too lazy to update.
hahha!

for the whole of the ten days, i missed you.

The feeling's like us flying in the sky,
It's that sweet feeling of flying oh so high.
Oh the feelings that I get,
Like the lurches in my stomach,
Everytime I see your smile~.

2010-06-11T10:14:00.002+08:00

i miss Hafizah Roslan (??)/Fyeeza/F/H/Hantu Misai. ok bye for 10 days people.

2010-06-11T02:56:00.003+08:00

will be leaving for the sunny shores of Indonesia in a few hours time.
im not really looking forward to this. sigh. but it cant be helped.
i mean, i already had plans with GPS abt pit, ton and stuff. what to do.

sigh, for 10 days, ill be gone. doing god knows what.
might as well enjoy as much as possible.
i mean, i have no idea what this visit is for =.="

and itll be the same there as it is, here; ill be missing you still =.=
when laaaaa, when? when will i meet you. not these 10 days, ill be stuck elsewhere.
id have to wait some more. sigh~. SIGH~.

and to that person ahh, you want ole-ole, meet me at Barley, if not, mimpi kan ahh. HAHHA! xD

2010-06-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

i agree what Faizal said on RS just, regarding F. but sometimes, its a risk wed all take, no..?

'the more you like, the more it is that youd be disappointed if it doesnt happen.'

someone once told me, that if its for someone you love, you should take the risk. but love tu, tak lahh kan. as in, not yet C;

ouh yeah, just to let you know F (F as in her, not Faizal) i do think of you day in, day out. i REAAALLY cant get you out of my mind. i put lock, you use hairclip to unlock. i put pin, you hack using Trojan. susah ahh giniiii~. tsk.

anw, the Suzurans are gonna have an outing later on. WEEEEEEE. go Waterfront Bay or whatitsname. yg baru bukak kat Msl tu laaaa. ill be crossing my fingers, hoping to TERserempak with you there. so God, if youre reading this, *winkwink*. ape lagik, grant my wish ahh. plsssss. favour ahh, ill promise to be good with my parents if you do. no seriously, i know youre reading this. so do it.

2010-06-09T02:22:00.003+08:00

dear F,
do you think of me..? cos i sure as hell think of you all the time. hahha! i do ok! anw, i came up with the best idea yet. i sit outside each and every sch in your area, just to find you. good kan the idea...? HAHHA! check check on the day i came to the correct sch, youre on MC. sial ahh wan, you sound like a stalker sia. tsktsktsk. anws, just to let you know, i miss you. feel guilty, feel VEEERY guilty.

yours,
A.

Everywhere I go, I'm always hearing your name
And no matter where I'm at, girl you make me wanna sing
Whether a bus or a plane, or a car or a train
No other girls in my brain and you the one to blame

so true.

2010-06-08T14:20:00.003+08:00

12th
*whispers* ill be counting down the days.

Hey little girl, hey, I miss you,
No I'm not lying, you know I do.
I miss you, do you miss me,
Come here baby, you I wana see.

Loot at me, you got me reduced to this,
Making up lines, singing songs of bliss.
Those three days I will never forget,
They're the best days in my mind just yet.

F.
F.
F.
F.
F.
I MISS F.
i hope to meet you again.

2010-06-07T03:40:00.002+08:00

hey anak Roslan (or is it Rozlan?), aku rindu kau laaaa.
ahahs.
its been a week since i last saw you.
yet, without you doing anyth, my feelings for you grew.
i got enough exp to lvl up my liking towards you.
skg dahh lvl 57. laju ehk naik?
funny how it seems, aye?
i wonder whatd happen if i AM contacting you these past few days.
i think id go bonkers.

It's operation 'Go! Go! Go!',
Cos girl, I missed you so, so, so.
I really need a little lightspeed rescue,
From this little mess that I got, myself into.

2010-06-06T08:33:00.002+08:00

Shalinis bday celebration was fun. the food was delisios. hahha! aft that, went watching A Nightmare on Elm Street with Izzat, JY, Gay, Han & Sun. sit couple seat siol. aku duduk ngan Izzat. HAHHA! pheewit xD . then slacked til the first train is available, and home. pnaaaaaat~ =.=

i hope i dont have to go the wedding later on. pnaaaaaat bongok.

anw, i miss F.

You're always on my mind,
You little ray of sunshine.
God, won't you help a little,
With her maybe a sign.

2010-06-05T01:12:00.003+08:00

what id give just to see your face again.
what id give to see your smile
to hear your laugh.
what id give to see you.

youre contagious, you know that..?
its hard trying to keep you off my mind, i keep failing and failing.

i know i said i didnt wana fall for anyone, well, its true.
i wasnt lying. well, then i guess we dont choose who we fall for, huh?

2010-06-04T10:50:00.003+08:00

you. you. you. you. me, oops, i mean you. you. you.
youre hogging my mind you, you nitwit. ARGGGHH!

lifes so much better with you ard (actually no ahh kan, since youre not here; i just felt like saying it :P)
sigh, cant text, cant chat, cant talk, cant nth =.="
i just feel like going down to AMK, in hopes that i could bump into you.
but where do i start? AMK so fuckin big (again, im not sure; im just sayin :P)

God, help me~.
*CLINK*
right~, i ask for help, you throw at me a freakin map. pfft.
GIVE ME A MAP OF RUNESCAPE SOMEMORE =.="

One day, and I'm writing down songs,
Two days, I'll be singing along.
Three days, you're still in my head
That moment in time, it'll never fade.

2010-06-04T01:05:00.002+08:00

sigh.
its been a week, and i still cant get F outta my mind.
sigggghh =.="
wtff of a spell did you put on me ahh?!
HAHHA.
asal laaa kau kene tinggal AMK..?
kan susah skit.
but its okay, im up to the challenge (cheyy, step); i wont stop finding.

cos at the end of the day, im sure itll be worth it all :D

She starts with the letter F,
It's so easy how easy she make me rev,
My mind up about her everything,
But it's sad 'cos I cant find a single thing,
On you little miss sunshine, on you.

2010-06-03T12:14:00.001+08:00

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

2010-06-02T09:53:00.001+08:00

F, where are youuu.
hahha.
imF.
i wonder where she is right now.

2010-06-01T02:40:00.002+08:00

i need to know you more.
your face, its still so vivid in my mind.
this is the only time i remember someones face this clear, when i dont know that person well.

the times playing back, over and over again.
good times, gooood times *Cosmos tone*

i remember your smile,
i remember your eyes,
i remember the stares,
i remember the laughs,
i remember the joy.
i remember the frown on your face when you found out were going home early.
i remember your face,
i remember how beautiful it was,
i remember the stares.

if i could reconnect with you,
God knows how happy id be.
i dont wana wait til another Nurul Mubin event just to talk to you.
even now, im still finding for you.
ive tried everything.
but im not stopping.

2010-05-30T22:57:00.004+08:00

Whenever you're around I smile,
And I don't see no one else around.

my God, OH MY GOD! hahha.
darn, i just cant stop thinking of you.
and i cant find anyth on you.
sigh.

gosh, i only see you during outings seeehh.
lasts years trip to i forgot where.
then the Raya feast.
then, the recent outing to KL.
next? tunggu raye lagi? sial ahh. by that time, aku confirm dahh NS siol. tsk.
i wish to see you soon.
God, grant me this one wish, please.

2010-05-30T20:25:00.003+08:00

i came back home, with an honest intention of playing DS on my lappy,
but here i am, desperately searching for an info of you, your FB profile, tagged maybe, anyth.
but sadly, i couldnt find any.

i regretted not asking, cos
you make my clock tick again :)

i still remember the incident at the ballroom; thats what got you talking.
chicken, hahha.

anw, on a brighter note, im sorry GPS, cos i couldnt get any souvenirs for you guys.
i know, i know, i promised. but things didnt go as planned *winkwink*

ouh yeah, im BACK! hahha!

2010-05-28T01:32:00.003+08:00

back to school was fun ystd.
i enjoyed it ALOT :D
met so many friends siaaa.
i get to feel like a student again, i get to feel like old times again. even if for a day, it was worth it. i miss being in NYP. i missed so many people. i get to meet my classmates, meet JY, Gay, Han, Ibnu they all. and not to mention, Buva, Fatin, Dianas group.
it was the best feeling to meet them again.

really felt like the old times.
wouldve been complete if...

on a brighter note, ill be in KL for 3 days starting today :D
dont miss me (i know the Suzurans wont. cb them).

2010-05-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

2010-05-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

I was at the mall the other day when I saw an old couple sitting together. The man looked over at the woman and said, "Jane, we did it. We grew old together."

- LGMH

2010-05-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

self-esteem gettin lower? - check ☑
depression? - check ☑
problems piling up? - check ☑

but its all good.
worst comes to worst, ill just crawl under a rock and die there; no onell know.
ouh wait, i forgot, im fat. mane ade batu yg lehh sembunyi kan aku. hahha ):

2010-05-18T03:06:00.002+08:00

Main Entry: Ummi Kulsum Hamid
Function: noun
Date: 2010

1 : a bundle of joy: happiness.
2 : an ambassador of happiness.

— um·mi·kul·sum \-ˌā-tiŋ-lē\ adverb

hahha! but it is true riiiight..? when you look up awesome in the dictionary, you get a picture of her. hahha. i swear shes the most energetic~~, a little bit pemalas cos lesson main monopoly~~ and happiest person ive met, seriously! org yg tgh sedihh pon taklehh sedihh if shes ard. confirm the frown turn upside down nyeeee. she is, after all, Supergirl :D . Supergirl is, well, super. hahha! anw, been chattin with her all night/morning, and it is super funny/lame/stupid/crap/awesome (a little). and yea, i seriously think her karma is seriously fucked up. i mean, isnt karma suppose to mean, 'What goes around, comes around'..? so why does she get problems when she only spreads happiness? it must mean her karma is rosak, the RAM tak upgrade, the graphic card dahh cair, but harddrive dier still ok ahh. hahha! no link, i know. so yeaaaaa, she should stay happy, cos Supergirl canot sadsad. you happy, i happy, we happy, alright..? hahha!

2010-05-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

i think im suffering from depression.
somebody help me, please.

2010-05-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

im so fuckin poor, i dont even have 5 cts.
how cool is that..?

im in shambles dammit.

2010-05-09T01:15:00.002+08:00

i love Cold Storage.
hahha.
ill be back, dont worry ;D

2010-05-05T01:56:00.001+08:00

orange. prawn. lime green. afghan. fried mars bars. vespa. octopus. faber drive. cycling. pasta. laughing. long bus rides. pineapple juice. singing. kids. colour contacts. vintage. spicy crackers. winner. guitars. parks. flower garden. shisha. bowling. KFC. sore-eyes. jacket. sweet & sour fish. beach. ingrid michaelson. cheese. cesspit. wake up. secondhand serenade. mcspicy. roxy slipper. sardine puffs. bangs. beyonce. beautiful. you.

2010-05-01T05:20:00.001+08:00

if only that was me youre referring to.
that wouldve been great.

but then, whod like me..?

2010-04-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

Am i an annoyance to THE supergirl?
Green Ranger only wants to help D;

2010-04-23T02:52:00.002+08:00

bloghopping, and i realised, i missed you.

well, that was hours ago.
time check 5.43am.

bloghopped, and i realised i missed the memories of us.

it got me thinking, when do we realise that we have something in our hands thats so precious, it made diamonds look cheap..? something so valuable, so priceless, that we took it for granted. that only when its gone, that we realise what wed had. only when we look at how deep a hole carved wide open that wed finally figure out that what we had aint there anymore. that now, we only have the past - the memories - to carry us through. i believe that i fall into this group for i believe i used to have something before it was gone. and that no matter what you try to do, what you try to think, it wont come back; the hole wont cover. and that all thats left, are ifs and buts, and the little memories of what used to be. but sometimes, there are those that dare to dream. there are those that dare to hope. hope that everything would go back to the way it was before. but sometimes, it aint hope but merely people trying to mask the fact that things wont ever be the same.

no. this is not hate. nor is it what people term as 'pouring out the heart'; being emotional.

this is me, saying i miss what used to be the other half of me. this is me, telling you, im sorry. my anger got the better of me. sometimes, i wish for one last dance, or maybe for you to appear in my life again. but i know itll never happen.

eesli.
if you still remember.

2010-04-20T00:59:00.002+08:00

its one thing to listen to someone,
its another to pick up the little details to differentiate between the truth and the lies.

to know someone, no, be close with someone over a long period of time and not be able to tell? thats sad.
aku lehh bahase and bahase, but itll be of no use... kan..?

Maaaaaaaaaan, i seriously feel for Tom Hansen.

2010-04-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

you know what.
lets be happy.
i dont wana be a glum idiot for the rest of my life.
i just wana be HAPPY.
hahha!

2010-04-16T02:36:00.002+08:00

hohoho. lifes mundane, well, pretty much right now.
im not in need of the fracas thats constantly popping up every now and then.
sigh. im getting too tired waaaay easily.
i just need soccer. no girls, just plain soccer to get my mind off things.

and Lysa, truthfully, idk. i feel kinda lost right now.
idk where to go, which path to take, what choices to make.
fucked up aye?

i thought it was that easy,
to let all of it go,
seeing as you played heart-monopoly,
with me and that pako.

2010-04-15T01:19:00.003+08:00

here i am, and i feel like breaking down.
i feel useless. i feel pathetic. i feel un-needed, if there even is sucha word. the times when i needed you most, you were gone.
now i have to deal with everything ALONE. i hate that word, do you..? sigh, my self esteem is at an all time low.

i feel like i should annul blogging for awhile.
its not like i have anything nice abt my life to spread ard.

its now or never, im gonna set up the wall,
its sad, it hurts; i dont ever wanna fall.
just when i thought life was turning, changing for the better,
now im caught in the headlights looking like a fucking loser.

i feel like giving up on life.

2010-04-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

the previous post was posted a mth ago sia, only date step smlm. hahha.
weeee~. Cage at Kallang lateeeer :DD .

sigh, if i had the chance of playing professional football, id do it.
but i suck.
but that aside, im lost.
lost in the sea that is Singapore >.>

id love to go out somewhere with someone, just relaxing; walking ard, talking, joking, get lost in time, or get lost anywhere for that matter. just spending a good time with someone.
its been a while since i did that.
just me and someone.
woooooow :)

and someone was excited apparently, abt buying "dress, slippers and pretty badges" :D
dahh tu, nvr get me one badge >.>
selfish ahh, that person.
hahhahhaha.
i was only joking :D

One still in love while the other ones leaving

2010-04-13T02:40:00.002+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

2010-04-10T01:02:00.004+08:00

tonight i wonder. wonder so much. but its useless pondering on the past. as much as i am inquisitive abt what wouldve been, its time i set my head on someone far more impt.

they say you never make someone a priority if they make you as just an option.

2010-04-06T05:05:00.002+08:00

hey hey ho!
*updating... updating... updating...*
ok, im back from Planet 52, Planet 51 nyer neighbour.
helped Ben 10 take on Vilgax :)
anw, its been a long time since i online-d this late.
and i spent my time wisely too :D
i played RS while hitting Vilgax.
cool ehk my multi-tasking ability..?
hahha!
i know, i know. lame.

tsk, medical check-up this coming wk.
aiyohh.
aku jadik Wan Botak baru.
hahha!

ok ppl, im off to bed.
need my sleep.
takkan nk fight evil evil ngntok ngntok kan.
tsk.
ok bye.

*updating... complete.*

2010-04-04T02:32:00.000+08:00

i go thru all the trouble just to blog this,
ystd was fun :D

but i still cant get my mind off of things.
its hard.

Love is like the sea.
There's its highs, and its lows.
But no matter what, it'll always be there.
- _____

2010-03-22T21:14:00.003+08:00

hello people, people, hey, hey people, here, hey people, people, hey.
hahahahahahaha.

its been awhile since i blogged aye?
you miss me? i dont. huahuahua. ainkk.
so many things have passed since i last blog.
ups, downs, centres, lefts also have. hahha!
but yeah, down, down rabak, up, up rabak.
but yeah.
anw, on a serious note, i feel like im messed up inside.
but fuck uhh, i just wana be happy.

on a happier note, ive been surrounded by warm hearts.
time with Faizal and gang has shifted me to my old self; boy sarcastic, and annoying.
so watch out Has, im back, back i am, back back back. baaaack. hahha!
and Ummi has been the best :DD
she seriously puts a smile on my face.
happy and care-free, kay?
ok, til then, im off.
im having writers block.

2010-03-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

kendarat at Jurong later, idk exactly where, but i dont care much.
was looking forward, but not nemore. sigh.

2010-03-05T03:19:00.004+08:00

i dont ever want this smile to ever slip off my face.

it was fun chatting with you :D

2010-03-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up right now!
Won't you just -

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, because -

This one's for the radio! (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!
This one needs a video! (Go ahead and look it up)
Cause they won't believe me when I say you're real.

There's nobody like you,
You're limited edition like my sneakers,
Need to turn this up in your speakers,
Because this one's for the radio. (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!

I've never met anybody like you before, yeah.
Incredible right from the minute that you walked through the door.
Carry yourself like a princess,
Walk like a supermodel,
Can I get a witness?
Loving your Coca-Cola bottle - Shaped body,
How you got me, you know it.
And I just wanna show it.
So baby won't you -

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up right now!
Won't you just -

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, because -

This one's for the radio! (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!
This one needs a video! (Go ahead and look it up)
Cause they won't believe me when I say you're real.

There's nobody like you,
You're limited edition like my sneakers,
Need to turn this up in your speakers,
Because this one's for the radio. (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!

It's amazing how you steppin' like you own the room, yeah.
And it only took me a second to notice you, yeah.
Attitude like a rockstar.
Loving the way you light up the night like a copcar.
Wanna be where you are.
Such a keeper,
No more secrets, you know it.
And I just wanna show it.
So baby wont you -

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up right now!
Won't you just -

Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, it's your song!
Turn it up, because -

This one's for the radio! (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!
This one needs a video! (Go ahead and look it up)
Cause they won't believe me when I say you're real.

There's nobody like you,
You're limited edition like my sneakers,
Need to turn this up in your speakers,
Because this one's for the radio. (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!

This that radio flow,
Let the beat go.
What you can't miss like my free throw.
She so bad like Mike would say,
Hot like a microwave,
Shawty it's going down like the pilot say.
But no plane crash,
I'm just tryin to make you laugh.
With me in line like Vegas caps.
Baby that's some real ish,
And I'm the realness
One Call, turn it up.

This one's for the radio! (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!
This one needs a video! (Go ahead and look it up)
Cause they won't believe me when I say you're real.

There's nobody like you,
You're limited edition like my sneakers,
Need to turn this up in your speakers,
Because this one's for the radio. (So DJ turn it up)
Cause I need to let the world know how I feel!

2010-03-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

" The first person who's on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason either of your happiness or pain"
- Reader Digest. :D

2010-03-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

i want the pics from Sentosaaaaaaaa D:
i waaaaaaant. cos i want to update my dp. hahha :D

two halves that make one,
id love for you to stay.
its been short,
but dont go.

2010-03-02T07:26:00.001+08:00

somehow, she makes me happy (:

2010-02-28T09:01:00.006+08:00

get well soon Ramsey.
sick tackle, even though it was unintentional.
a 19 yr old doesnt deserve this, at all. period.
a horror injury, akin to Eduardos and Diabys injury.
his season is definitely over.
i just hope his career aint.

but on Shawcross part, he acted like a professional, apologising straight away.
so yeah.
get well soon, and start terrorising defenders again.

on a lighter note, Vermaelen looks like hes singing opera. hahha (:

2010-02-26T05:38:00.001+08:00

~~500~~400 days of summer. get it?

2010-02-25T03:45:00.003+08:00

I remembered how you looked on that Friday,
You gave me a smile and looked away,
I thought that it'd be okay.

As the day went on, we stared and smiled,
We had a little bliss for all the while,
I never thought that I'd sway.

2010-02-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

yes. if things go correctly, insyallah, ill have job. a good one too.
thks to Faizal.

i should take this time to thank people like him, Hasif, Izzat & Jamal.
they really are true friends.
thks for helping me (:

2010-02-22T15:37:00.003+08:00

goodbye.
i will try (:

2010-02-20T04:23:00.000+08:00

couples here,
couples there,
couples couples everywhere.

i just wana be happy, with someone.
thats all.

2010-02-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

dear love,
how i wish you were here with me. i feel so alone. i feel so lonely. theres no one that i feel as comfortable with as much as you. dear love, i wish you knew how much i love you. how badly i miss you. how sorry i am to see you go. how terrible i feel to see your back towards me. dear love, i wish we were back together. i want the times in the past, to be my future. i wish we could go out, and not sit here and reminisce about before. dear love, i miss your hands. i miss how snugly they fit into mine, how warm they were and lovely they looked. dear love, where were you..? have you now gone, leaving for skies that are in better shades of blue..? leaving what is now a gray patch that used to be us two..? dear love, i miss your pampering. i miss those little things you do, trying to make me the happiest boy, yes dear, its you. the little treats you buy for me when i say i was hungry, the little things you bought for me, and none for you when you were out of the country. dear love, i pinned a picture of us on my wall. i watched us smiling, and loving it all. i loved your smile. i miss your smile. yours is a smile that is worth running a mile. dear love, how i miss your touch. it is so warm, i love it so very much. dear love, i miss everything about you. dear love, i miss you.

yours truly,
A.

2010-02-13T02:42:00.006+08:00

i blame myself for the mess in front of me.
you are a one in a million.
you gave everything for me.
w/o thinking about yourself.
all the things youve done for me, i dont think it all went to waste.
i recognise your effort and appreciate it.
i, on the other hand, wasted yours.
im sorry.
i caused soo much trouble, esp that rift that i created between you and your friends.
and those arguments that turned physical, im sorry too.
i was being too mean, i know.

"love may be the glue. but the strings of moment shared, that's the soul of things."
- from a certain book you helped me borrow.

you were the one thing that i took for granted.
iloveyou.
i still do.
wouldve been our 14th month together. *sigh*

2010-02-13T01:03:00.004+08:00

no matter what, its you that i want.
and only you.
i WANT to go thru life with you. i want the warmth that i feel beside me to emanate from you.
i want to go thru ups and downs with you. i wana live my life with you.
ill wait. ill wait for you.
ill never let go.
i love you.
i love you more than ive loved anyone, my family included. and that means alot.
but first, i have to go NS. sigh.